Yearn

Yearn, yearn and yearning

I yearn for it

It that has been so delusive

That has been illusive

Illusive so much that I want to live in it

Dwell in my yearn

Yearn that so deep and rusty

Quenching but dried up into the last inch of the hollow of my heart

I try I try hard

Harder to catch it, to quench it, to stash it

Catch it with flying moment of little laughter cracked on the other side of the door

Quench it with the endless tears, with the blood of the bleeding heart

Stash with my pragmatic mind and dispose it as a forgotten history

But it surfaces

Surfaces everytime when I am alone

Alone even in the sea of people

Alone. Alone and alone

It hits me even I see a tender moment

When a tender song hits my ear drums

When the nature sings with bullets of raindrops on the dusty chest of earth

I yearn for it.

Ever ?

-Nitin Jalan

Date: August 19, 2008

Time: 10:49 PM

Season: Fall

Weather: Rainy, Fay hit Florida